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Missing the good life

Nå sitter jeg da her, å ser på MTV. Siden jeg har vært syk og sånn, så har jeg sett utrolig mye på TV i det siste. Spesielt MTV. Jeg er nesten flau av å si at jeg er heeelt fullstendig hektet på teite amerikanske reality programmer som The Hills, Newport Harbour og Laguna Beach. Det er ikke måte på hvor mye drama som foregår. Ikke det at noe av innholdet ikke er en smule ordnet på. Men mesteparten skal visst være helt og holdent realistisk.

Jeg tror jeg vet litt hvorfor jeg ser på det, skal jeg være helt ærlig så savner jeg USA veldig og drømmer meg litt vekk ved å se på dem, med tanke på at de finner sted akkurat hvor jeg var.

Jeg får antakeligvis tur til USA av Mamma til bursdagen, da drar jeg mest sannsynligvis i vinterferien. Jeg teller ned!


Vel, da var skolen startet. Jeg kan ikke si at jeg ikke gruer meg. Det blir kjempe
skummelt.. på en måte. Jeg som er så dårlig til å konsentrere meg om å gjøre mitt
beste, har lovet meg selv at i år skal jeg faktisk prøve. Jeg kan faktisk heller ikke bare prøve, jeg MÅ gjøre mitt beste, ellers kan jeg si bai bai til studering i USA om to år. Så jeg har intet valg.

Det var kjekt å se kjente fjeser igjen, selv om mange av media folkene vi gikk med første året ikke var der. Spesielt rart var det at René, Martine og Katrine ikke var der. Skal innrømme jeg savner dem, og det er skikkelig tomt på en måte.

I dag gikk vi på tur i steden for å ha norsk. Det var helt greit bare. Jeg som ikke har beveget meg ordentlig på månedsvis strevde litt med å komme meg opp dit, men
klarte meg. Nå har jeg super ondt i bena, og har en feeling at jeg våkner opp med gangsperr i morgen!

Tufs

Har ikke orket å blogge, jeg er fremdeles dårlig. Det er helt for jævlig, men må bare leve med det!
Var på innflytningsfest hos Katrine i går. Det var kjempe koselig.
Skulle egentlig på innflytningsfest i dag også, til min bror. Men den festen skal være en smuuuule større. Har en følelse av at det kommer til å bli alt for hurra meg rundt i min tufse tilstand. Så jeg orker ikke. Jeg vil jo ikke drikke heller, med tanke på at jeg bare hadde blitt enda verre.
Jeg får heller se min bror sin leilighet senere!

Never ending nigtmare

Heheheh, se hva jeg fant.
Eller ikke akkurat fant, men kom på jeg har helt glemt.
Første kortfilmen fra media i første klasse:



Helt uten mening og horribel lyd (eller hvertfall av det lille av lyd det er).

I går hadde jeg det super koslig, jeg hang med René og mange andre folk i byn i hele dag. Vi bare tuslet rundt, og så endte vi opp på café opera. Der kom Mariel og Kim, og etterhvert Maya. Har ikke sett Mariel og Maya på superduper lenge, og det var kjempe koselig å se dem igjen. Når det begynte å bli litt senere, stakk vi med Astrid på Peppes Pizza.

Andre ting kan også ses på som et never ending nightmare. Rett etterpå kjenner jeg meg plutselig uggen. Trodde det kommet til å gå over, men da jeg kom hjem følte jeg meg bare enda verre. Kastet opp gjorde jeg også.. Selvfølgelig ble jeg jo redd med tanke på hva som har skjedd de siste tre ukene.

I dag har jeg ikke gjort annet enn å sitte på sengen med uggen mage å hodepine. Skulle egentlig til legen, men fikk ikke akutt time. Så må se i morgen.
Ellers har jeg også insomnia, i 4 dager har jeg ikke fått sove overhodet.

sukk

When it goes to your head

Hvorfor må alle jobbe så mye?

Jeg skulle jo ønske jeg hadde meg jobb akkurat nå, for å ikke føle meg som den nørden som sitter alene hver dag og stirrer på TV skjermen.
(Når Pernille tenker seg om, så hadde det ikke forandret seg så veldig mye med jobb uansett)

Men hvertfall. Jeg kom på et rart spørsmål dere må svare på.
Okei, så. Du hadde ALDRI hatt sex før. Men så ble du gravid!
Hvordan får du folk til å tro på deg?
Jeg mener, det måtte jo ha drevet en til vanvidd. JA denne tanken var inspirert av Jomfru Maria, som ble gravid helt uten videre. Stakkar damen.

Og by tha way, jeg skal hvis begynne på Laksevåg allikavel.
På grunn av misforståelser og litt sånn forskjellig hadde jeg endt opp på Åsane. Men nå skal jeg gå Media tredje året!
Noe som passer meg fint, for når jeg tenker over det så tror ikke jeg (etter disse to slappe årene) at jeg hadde overlevd bare allmenn.

Liste av dagen

1. 1/3 av dagen min gikk utpå å lese lister. Jeg fant en blogger som linket listuniverse.com. Der kan du finne alle slags lister om masse forskjellige ting. Super interesant er det. Hvertfall hvis du ikke ha allverdens ting å finne på.
Nå, siden hodet mitt er blitt så full av lister, skal jeg lage liste over dagen. Selv om det ikke blir en veldig lang en.

2. Når jeg stod opp: 10.30.

3. Så spiste jeg

med




4.Så litt på selv om det egentlig ikke er sånn super gøy...

5. Så, så jeg litt på (olympisk svømming rett og slett.)

6. Så var det ned på rommet sette seg forran pcen og surfe som bare faen (faen fordi jeg kjedet meg sånn) på nettet.

7. Deretter så jeg Som jeg trist nok ikke fikk sett ferdig, for de som hadde lagt den ut på youtube manglet en del. hmrfr...

8. Så spiste jeg

9... og drakk som er en skam for menneskeheten!! Akkurat i dag så hadde vi ikke Cola. Min kropp trenger kullsyre, så den eneste utveien var et glass med Pepsi max. Dø brus døø.

10. Så satt jeg her. og laget denne bloggen. Pizzaen er forresten blitt kald. OISHDA!

After Tonight

Fine sangen..

Reminisce = flott ord

Fant dette bildet og Retro poppet det:


Sånne bilder, for meg, er som vanlig helt tilfeldig og sjelden, så jeg bestemte meg for å legge det ut. Her er det Zach som står å vimser.

Ett til fra den dagen (meg som står å vimser):


I dag har det vært nok en dag med intent spesielt innhold, hvor høydepunktene var å spise taco og å få nye tamponger.
Livet er kipt.
Hvertfall for øyeblikket.

Interesant blogg?

Unngått å skrive pga manglene skrivelyst og ingen spesielt underholdene idéer.

Hva gjør en blogg god egentlig?
Det er mange forskjellige grunner til å ha en blogg liksom.
Jeg begynte med det bare for tidsfordrivets skyld, og for å holde vennene oppdatert med unødvendige detaljer om livet mitt, [nå ble jo den bloggen til slutt litt for privat].
Men så utviklet det seg til å ha lyst på fler lesere og begynne å legge litt bilder, og skrive om ting som har mening. Jeg har vel ikke helt klart å lage bloggen sånn super interesant enda, og det er lite sannsynlig at den noen ganger kommer til å bli det..

Men jeg føler, uansett hva jeg kommer på å gjøre, så er det allerede gjort ett dusin ganger. Det eneste det ender opp å se ut som, er en [dårlig] etterligning av et eller annet innlegg i en skikkelig populær blogg.

Hvordan utvikler man et personlig preg på en blogg, uten at det ser ut som alle andres?
Jeg får vel bare fortsette å skrive og se hvor det bærer meg hen!
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I går var vi på kino å så den nye Mummy filmen. Fy flate så dårlig den var.
Ufattelig dårlig animasjoner, dårlige klisjéfylte replikker og tom storyline.
RIP 95kr! pluss 55 kr for nattbuss, siden vi bestemte oss klokken 9 for at vi ville på kino. Så ble det en smule sent.
Nå har jeg ca 200kr på konto, som ikke egentlig er mine penger en gang!

Har ikke vært så fattig på århundrer.
I feel naked!

Jobb på Carlings

Oi, ble livredd i går kveld. Jeg fikk så sykt vondt i magen, ingen var hjemme så jeg bestemte meg for å gå opp til min mor å sove der hvis det ble verre.
Paranoid much?

Anyways. Nå er jeg garantert jobb på Carlings når jeg fyller 18! oh yeah ;D
Blir sykt digg.
Men nå var det det å få jobb et annet sted mens vi venter.. hmm.
kanskje jeg skal ty til Mc.Donalds. var visst dritlett å få seg jobb der har jeg hørt.

Litt klassisk skader ikke

Yann Tiersen - La Valse d'Amélie

Som jeg har sagt tidligere, Amélie har fantastisk soundtrack. Jeg har ikke klart å holde meg vekke fra å høre på det, tross sjangeren.
Jeg skal innrømme jeg har en svakhet for melodiske pianolåter, og denne her er intet unntak.
Mange som ikke skjønner helt meg og min elsk for piano tror jeg, de er litt sånn; 'hvordan klarer du å høre på dette?'
Men hvordan kan man ikke høre på det?
Enkelte sanger bare treffer meg sånn enormt. Vet vel egentlig ikke helt hvorfor.

Filmer og sånt

Nå skifter jeg til norsk! Av en eller annen grunn så føles det mye mer riktig.
Jeg elsker engelsk asså, og det er langt fra vanskelig. Men blogging bare egner seg mer til norsk syns jeg.

De siste tre dagene har vært gørrkjedelig. Jeg har ikke tatt initiativ til å gjøre noe som helst. I dag tar jeg mest sannsynlig turen bort til Gullgruven for å si hei til kusine som jeg ikke har sett siden jeg dro til USA.
Og det er lenge det.

Jeg har en stor trang til å gå på kino. Det er masse filmer jeg har super lyst å se men som jeg ikke har fått sett enda. The Dark Knight for eksempel, og Hancock.
Og alle de andre filmene som ikke har komt ut i Norge enda.

Én ting som gjør meg kjempesint er at de mest sannsynligvis ikke kommer til å sende 'Twilight' i Norge. Jeg sjekket kommende filmer på hjemmesiden til Bergen Kino og neida. Denne filmen kommer sikkert til å være drit dårlig, med tanke på at det er en film laget utifra en bok. Filmer fra bøker er alltid mer eller mindre dårlig i forhold til boken. Men likevel så er jeg NØDT å se den.


Nesten like nødt som jeg har får å se den nye Potter filmen, som jeg vet jeg kommer til å bli skuffet over likevel.
og WANTED med Angelina Jolie (vakreste personen på planeten ja) og den norske filmen Den Siste Revejakten..

Crazyness can be triggered by endless of things

I was sitting with my photoshop just doodling. I'm actually not very good at photoshop, and the only thing I keep on doing is retouching. Perfect things and faces.
I'm not good at being creative.. really. and if i try to do somewhat creative things, it's extremely simple and doesn't take up a lot of time, I'm working on it..

This is not the point though.
The point is:

Retouching is so goddamn addictive! When you suddenly know how to make yourself look like a model, thats what you end up doing. I have to admit I've done a lot of photos of myself and that sounds horrible. Even though it's just shallow dream, looking at those fake pictures, makes you feel so much worse about yourself.

I've had pictures I feel like I looked alright, then I opened them in photoshop, fixed them, and afterwards felt like shit for not looking like that in the first place.

If your a person with screws about to twist and fall out in your head, starting to photoshop yourself will definitely push them all out and make you crazy.

This is a quite simple example:


and by the way, i do not retouch ANY pictures I put out. I adjust them and that's it.
The people that put out retouched pictures of themselves is the ones that has already gone crazy.

Vacation failure

Okay, I really don't feel like writing in English anymore.
So I need to know how many English speaking humans that actually read this blog?
Give a shout, and we'll see what I do about it.
If it's just you Chels, I'm sorry, I have to say my Norwegian is more suitable for blogging for me.

Anywho.
This is going to be a long ass blog.

This happened at the airport in Oslo(and me who thought I didn't bruise very easily):


Kos, or Cos, or whatever, went straight to hell. The two first days were pretty fun.
I managed to get drunk two times the first day. I learned fast that was not the smartest thing to do if I wanted to look good later on.
Trying to put on mascara and liquid eyeliner drunk, is not easy.
But yeah, at least we had fun.








Next day I was ready for more fun. But then waking up third day I was in so much pain it couldn't even be described as a hangover.
I thought, of course, that it was hangover and that it would be over that day.
But then the next was just as bad, and the next, and the next.
Doctors and hospital was involved, no body thinking it was other than a stomach flu or just the alcohol doing just a little more damage than usual.
(the story is much more detailed and complicated, but I'm not gonna write more than whats necessary)

On the 7th day, not having been able to have fun and party with people all week, laying on the bed most of the time, either throwing up or surviving pain, my dad thought it would be smart to get me to a better hospital.
So we managed to get me on a plane to Athens.

I need to say, I was so embarrassed. Sitting on the plain to Athens I felt well.
At times I could have moments where I felt pretty alright and I thought maybe THIS time, it's going to be fine.
So when I came I was like, umh. I don't really feel bad right now, it might come back though! ehhe, ehhe.
They found out very quickly that my Appendicitis had burst and I needed surgery right away. They didn't know how long it had been burst for.
Having a burst Appendicitis is life threatening to the max.

Of course I was so scared I started crying. Not because I needed surgery but the fact that I was going to have to get in narcosis, which freaks me out.
Everything that has the effect to make me high, from this day on scares me so much, because earlier in the vaycay the doctor had given me a painkiller that made me over-medicated. It was a horrible experience that I would rather not duplicate.

My mom came down the day after though, and stayed with me for 6 days, until I could go home. Since I had a lack of walking possibilities, the only thing we could do was sit in the hospital room watching TV, read and talk. The days went by kind of slowly.
At least they went and I'm so glad everything is alright.

Me at the Hospital:


okay so my the vacation I had been looking forward to for such a long time got to waste. I'm getting most if not everything back on the insurance, luckily.
That means I don't need to owe my dad as much, and that also means I can start(and it'll be easier) saving for London trip.
I've been wanting to go there for, I don't even know how long, and I might go there two times. One before Christmas and one after. 'Cause it's with different people.

Today I hung out with René. It was nice, we just walked around, got stuff to eat and went and got new gauges for me. Now I'm soo tired, I've barely slept.
I will probably go to bed pretty early.

Still sick

yup. still sick. I've actually considered going home. It's unbearable.
I have moments when I'm pretty alright, but then it comes back again.

Anyways, today I managed to lay by the pool for a while. It was nice and it was one of the not-sick moments.

If it doesn't go away in 2 days, I need to go home.

Hangovers ARE the devil

yay! the internets.

I have 8 minutes to write this.
Okay so, the first two days were pretty fun.
But then yesterday, I got such a bad hangover that I fainted about 3 times, I was sickly sick to my stomach for about the whole day.
Then I thought I had been better cause It usually only takes about a day.
So I went out (without drinking), and ate and everything.
But then today, I was just as sick again! and I hadn't even tasted the goddamn alchohol!
I hate that I've gotten the same thing as my mum.
I never know when I'll get hangovers and when I won't.
It's so funny how calling your mum when you're like that is a help.
I needed desperately to talk to her. I don't know why. It's somehow comforting. haha.

I'm too scared to even consider drinking anymore.

Kos

I have this feeling I probably won't be able to blog these next two weeks seeing how I'm spending them in Greece.
This'll be my last one until then, maybe I'll keep a little notebook with me, so I can remember those things I really want to write about.

Anyways, I'm very excited. It really didn't hit me before yesterday that we're leaving. It was funny, cause we had NO intensions what so ever to drink yesterday.
Suddenly we're sitting there, meaning Caroline, Ida, Kristin, Malene, Pernille, Tine and me, with cider beer and all.
haha. we're lame.

I'm working on packing right now, of course I have that paranoia everybody has when they're packing, I just CANNOT forget anything.
so I've been thinking through the list a thousand times. I still feel like something is missing.

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My neck hurts so bad you don't even know, it's definitely stress, it has to be.
and my jeans are just gone. just out of the blue sky.
I have NO idea where they are and I saw them just a couple of days ago.
I can't understand it. I need those jeans.

aaaaaaah

a part of where I'm going in two days (I really could NOT get a better picture =S):

Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain

I've been avoiding writing these last couple of days cause I don't have any interesting to write.
I haven't been doing anything.. almost..
yesterday I was at René's 18th. Before that I went around a little waiting for the bus, and I finally bought Amélie.. or Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain.
It's officially my favorite movie. It used to be Little Miss Sunshine, but I have to admit this one has beaten in.

You've probably heard about it, or seen it, but still.
It's about this very shy girl living in Montmarte in France, one day she decides she wants to help people in stead of daring to do anything else in her own life.
She then falls in love... and the rest you can see for yourself, cause you have to see it.

It's not like a movie. More like a... art piece put to life.
and the music in it... wooow. :)

René's 18th was fun, and we, of course, watched Amélie..
I'm watching it again right at this moment actually...

HP and Imogen Heap

There! now I'm done with the HP book. It took me, estimated, 15 hours.
I know it's been done faster than that, but then again I'm not a very quick reader.
I've barely done anything the last 3 days. It's been reading, eating and movies.

I was about to say I need to get things done tomorrow, but seeing how it's sunday that's going to be impossible. This country is of course closed on sundays. I need a simcard for a phone. I was suppose to get the iPhone, and it was suppose to be the same amount as in the U.S... I really doubted it to become that way, and I was right. It's as expensive as a donated liver.
rawr.

So, I want to mention Imogen Heap. She's amazing.I've been addicted to her a couple of months now, and I think you should listen to this song a couple of times. It gets more beautiful every time you listen to it. Or so it did to me, I think it's one of my most played songs on Itunes.
Hide and Seek


I don't know why the video is not working, but just click the
link in stead or something.

As for the music video, I'm not impressed.
It's decent and everything, and I'm not saying I could've done better.
But I just think so much more could've come out from this song!

Geek

Guess what I'm doing?
.. yep. I'm reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows YET again.
This is the third time, but to my defense, that was a year ago.. that I actually read it two times two weeks apart.

I started yesterday and is almost done.



It's brilliant though. I'm one of the many HP freaks.
And I'll mourn the end of the series til the day I die.

WHY oh WHY didn't she make it longer?

Finally a job?

Hi.

Tuesday. wow, you have to look a long time to find more drama than that. I didn't get involved. But damn.
Yes, we drank again. we had a drinking games and stuff. very.. umh.. interesting..

Anyways, yesterday I actually saw Happy feet two times! I saw it for myself because I've been wanting to see that for a looong time. Later a lot of people were over at Carolines house to watch a movie.
We ended up watching Happy feet there too. But it's a cute little movie and I really didn't mind it.

Before all of that I went to the mall with Pernille and we just looked around. What happened was, I have really been wanting a job at Carlings. We just went in there to look and then I asked the guy there a really simple question.
Suddenly we were standing there talking and all, actually for a long time to.

I have a feeling I might get it! :D
and that's exciting cause I love Carlings, their clothes and everything.

but you know what other clothes I like?
Urban Outfitters. It's killing me that I never got the time to go and look. And it's killing me looking at the website seeing all those pretty clothes that costs a fortune to get sent over from the U.S.

aaah

Decision about being social

yayy Sunday I saw René! That was amazing :)
We were at his bf's place and watched a movie and ate pizza. very good evening!

Yesterday I went to IKEA and got stuff for my room. I can finally finish it.
And then I was invited to Boi-boi's 18th, so I went there and that was fun.


Bored, trying to figure out if I want to go and drink with people tonight or sit inside with a couple of movies and lots of candy and good stuff.
I've been out almost everyday since I got home.
hard decision, very hard.

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Nightmare

I hate when that happens.
I hate when you are so tired, you fall asleep, but only at the surface.
Cause you end up having a bad dream that wakes you up way to early.
And then you can't go back to sleep, cause all you can think about is the dream and that you don't want to go back in it.

The worst nightmares are not really the ones thats suppose to make you scared. But more so, the ones that just freaks you out, the really weird ones.
Like the one I just had. It felt totally and completely real! and I think I was dreaming IN the dream too, that's why it was so weird.

The cat I chased of the bed felt real, me turning the itunes music in my OLD room off without even putting it on felt real, and laying in the bed trying to sleep IN my dream... aaaah I DONT EVEN HAVE CAT!
And then the worst part: freaking out IN the dream trying to wake your real self up.
I tried and tried and shaked my whole body, but it just wouldn't get out of it.

You can probably tell I'm pretty freaked out right now.
I think I'm going to put a movie on and fall asleep to it.

Being just me and my parents in a big house like this, where 7 people usually take place, doesn't help the case.

Denmarksplace

I'm so tired.

Well, on Friday, we didn't end up going to Siljes, we actually went to Hans Roger's place and bbq-ed. We didn't stay very long, but it was a nice little visit.

Yesterday was fun.
On daytime I didn't do much. It was so annoying cause my parents said they were going to the beach. A little after they went, I decided I wanted to go too, cause I really wanted to swim. I walked down there, and then when I came I couldn't find them anywhere. So I had to sit down alone. So I actually sat at the beach quite lonely for about a hour and swam and everything. It wasn't bad, I enjoy being alone sometimes.

Later I went to Tone, we drank and stuff before going to Christians party.
The party was alright! I was suppose to go with Tine at 2.30, cause then I had a ride and everything, but I just didn't want to leave at that particular moment, so I ended up taking the first bus home at 7!
At 4 the people that was left suddenly wanted burgers for some reason, so we all went down to the gas station to get it.

I didn't sleep or anything, I decided not to, cause I was so scared I was going to get a hangover. I actually managed to avoid it today.
Me and Dag was just sitting up playing Guitar Hero to keep us awake while we were waiting for the bus.





well, that was pretty much today too.
Later I might be hanging with René, I can't friggin wait to see that boy.

Job hunting

So, well.
Yesterday I was suppose to go bowling with a lot of people. But when me and Caroline were on our way people told us that it was not open. So we figured we would just go up to Ida's while finding out what to do.

After a while Christian and Kim came and we went with them to Christians place, where we played guitar hero and watched movies.
Me, Caroline, Ida and Kristin stayed the night.
I wasn't planning on it so I didn't have clothes or anything. I hate when that happens, especially this time cause I was going downtown to look for a job. We were already downtown so there was no point in me going home just to change and then take the bus all the way back. I felt disgusting.

Ida and Caroline went with me. We went around for hours!
I asked sooooooo many places, but all of them either didn't know (didn't have their manager) or they said, come back in August.
So basically I'm kind of doomed when it comes to getting money for Greece.
I bet I have to borrow EVEN more from my dad. aaaah I feel sorry for him.

Tonight we're going to Silje's place... I don't know what we're doing. But I heard something about eating. Which is always good!

Like a feather in air

I let loose of my boredom and actually managed to do something today.

Yesterday was my dads birthday, so we had a nice dinner and dessert and everything. It was actually the first time I ever drank alcohol with my dad and step-mom there. My dad asked us (me and my step-sis) if we wanted apple cider cause he had bought it for us. It was weird but kind of fun. It's only about 3 months until we turn 18 anyways, and we're going to Greece in 3 weeks. What exactly do they expect us to do there, alone, without adult supervision? haha.

Anyways.
Today I woke up pretty late, again, but not as late as previous days. I got up and decided to go the the mall to visit Ida, that I haven't been able to see yet. She was working so we couldn't hang out, and she's not off before Friday.
Also I wanted to check out the new stuff there!
There's been a lot of changes since I left.
Still not as cool as the stores in the U.S... But that'll never happen here in Norway.

About an hour ago I started putting up posters and everything, it's going to take forever and a day. You might ask why I bother putting up posters, but to be honest it's just something I have to have on my wall to feel at home. haha!
My walls are über cool and it'll probably look pretty amazing, so I'll post a picture or something. yaya.

Other than that, all I have to say is, YAY! Sun is back and it's nice and warm out.
I had an urge to swim today but never got so far. It's probably freezing in the waters here anyways.


So I'm drifting away like a feather in air
letting my soul take me away from the hurt and dispair
So I'm keeping the vertical forever elevator
Riding the escalator to the something that's greater

I don't know how..

... Norway doesn't have the biggest rates of suicide.
I mean, life doesn't revolve around the weather, don't get me wrong, but I can't imagine how it could not have any effect on anyones life. Personally, it has a lot to do with what I do and how I act. The weather is around you constantly, and the only way to avoid it is by sitting inside and do nothing.

I get in a better mood when the weather is nice. I get in a better mood because it's nice and comfortable, and I feel like I can do anything for some reason, that way, I also feel more confident.

It probably doesn't make a lot of sense to you does it?

I wish either to go back to the U.S. or get a miracle here in Norway.
I would choose the first one.

I'm home

yes in fact I am.
I haven't got time to be on the computer at all. There's a lot to write but I'll keep it simple.

My travel took about around 27 hours. I was so tired of sitting. My knees hurt so bad! The flight was, of course, delayed. So it made me miss the flight in Chicago, which means that they had a 90% bigger chance of loosing sight of my bag. and of course they did!
When I arrived in Oslo it never came. I'm a very paranoid person and has gone around thinking, oh man, I'm never going to get my bag and so on. But I know I will, I just can't stop worrying. It's not necessarily the clothes that makes me nervous, because that's always replaceable, but there was stuff in that bag that means a lot to me. And if it gets totally lost, I'll never get that back and it kind of hurts.
also, my school transcripts are in there! If I don't get them soon I can forget going into the last year. I will have to do my 2nd year all over again.

Well, so.. when I arrived it was the most hilarious sight ever. My sisters and my mom was standing there with flags and signs and everything, it was slightly awkward.
But at least I felt very welcomed home. haha!
In the car they asked me if I could put a bandana around my face. Like it wasn't obvious at all.

There at home was some of my friends waiting, having a little get together for me coming home and stuff. It was nice and I'm so thankful they did that.
We ate brownies and had little hats on! just like a kiddie party :D
I love them, haha.



Today I slept until 4.30, I didn't even know. Later on I said hi to my grandparents and then I went to the movies with Pernille and Maren :)

Magic Mountain stole my Roller Coaster virginity.

This day (or yesterday) has been amazing, horrible, sad, awesome, thrilling, exciting, nervwrecking, sick, nice and a hundred other adjectives that my brain is to lazy to come up with right now.
It's 2:14 in the morning and I just came back in from talking with Daniel for about 2 hours straight. I'm going to miss him. a lot.

In 4 hours I'm on my way back to Norway. shitfuck.

Well, so... I took my first roller coaster today though at Six Flags, Magic Mountain. Or should I say roller coasterS. After taking the mummy ride at universal so many times that I've gotten bored of it, I decided that I was ready to try out the big scary tall looking things that drop you several several feet in the air just like that and spin you around like a rag doll.
I've always been deathly afraid of them, but now I just thought, what the heck. I need to live my life while I have it!

So without thinking I went into Revolution, the oldest and probably lamest ride there, just to start of easy. Afterwards I was going to try Tatsu!
I acted all confident and stuff but really I was gonna piss my pants.

Tatsu is the one where you hang like you're going to fly, facing down. I don't even know why I thought I was going to be able to do that as my second roller coaster ever. When we were about to go on after standing in line for an hour I freaked out, hyperventliated and almost fainted and everything so I just decided not to do it.
Right after I did The Riddler, Scream and Batman and those were pretty darn fun. Chelsea said they were even worse than Tatsu so I figured OH ok well then It's not a problem.

I went on it(Tatsu), it was fun(translated = scary as fuck). When we got off, GUESS WHAT I DID? I got sick and threw up.
and then I was done.
but yeah, at least I can say that I've improved my roller coaster mental illness thingy.

I'll give you a vid when I get it on my computer.

So after Magic Mountain, we went and ate at Claim Jumper. After that we went home, and I went outside to talk to Daniel. To say bye and all of that.
Of course when I get inside it really hit me that I was leaving and I just kinda broke down.
ZOMG, TMI (too much information.. translated for the less clever)

If you didnt notice, I'm overtired and has written a blog as long as the fifth Harry Potter book. almost.

Uforståelig

Yes, I'm going to continue writing in english, but for right now I need to rant.

Jeg føler for å skrive på norsk akkurat nå.
Jeg har et lite spørsmål:

Hvis du hadde hatt en utvekslingstudent i et år, og hun hadde to dager igjen før hun skulle dra. siste dagen var planlagt til å være heeeele dagen med deg og familien.
Dagen før ville hun være med venner og bruke dagen på venner. Hadde du følt deg såret og sint fordet hun ikke ville henge med dere og familien den dagen også?

Nå er Chelsea og Susie kjempe sur på meg bare fordet jeg valgte å være med venner siden det var siste gang jeg skulle få se dem og sånn.
Hva skulle vi gjort hjemme uansett?? sitte å stirre på tv skjermen??
for det var det vi hadde endt opp å gjøre om jeg hadde bestemt meg for å være hjemme. Det er jo faen det vi har gjort hele jævla året.

Morgendagen, eller i dag (siden jeg skriver dette halv to på natten) kommer til å være drit om de fremdeles skal være sur. Tror Susie kan klare det, men Chelsea er ikke helt voksen nok til å ta seg sammen og kommer antakeligvis ikke til å utnytte dagen så bra som mulig med meg.
jaja.
Hennes valg.

English is so simple

I'm going to start blogging in english now!
Just because, that way I can feed my english knowledge, so I don't forget it.
Not that I would, but you know.
Aaaand so people I've gotten to know in this country over here can read it too!

Good for all.

Sooo, today was alright. I've gotten this habit of sleeping for a long time again, I really don't want to get used to it, cause getting up early is so much more giving. haha. I've always had this feeling of guilt getting up late in the morning because I feel like I'm wasting the day.

Anyways, I went shopping today. One last round before going home to the most expensive country in the world! I bought this very cute dress at pac sun, and a couple of things at Forever21.

And then I had my last cinnabon. Zach forgot to grab forks, so we were sitting in the car looking like little too excited kids wiping cinnabon all over the place. hahah

I'm almost done packing! It's so depressing. My whole room is empty! which kind of makes it worse. and I heard it's raining again in Bergen.
I really don't want to go back, please don't let me home :(

Look at this hair, isn't it just amazingly awesome?
I've been dreaming of having this kind of color since forever. But I would never do it, I wouldn't fit it at all.

Warped Tour og slikt.

Jeg får ikke sove, så jeg tenkte jeg skulle blogge fram litt helg for dere.
Det har vært en veldig blandet helg av bra og dårlig.
Det at vi surret Ronnie inn i plastikken tok helt av, moren skulle visst melde politiet, men endte opp ikke å gjøre det bare fordet hun skjenner Susie og ville ikke få henne problemer.
Så der var vi heldig.

Vi dro ganske så sent på Lørdagen, så vi kom dit sent. Selv om vi skulle opp klokken 8 om morningen gikk vi fremdeles ned til stranden (noe som var grusomt langt) bare for å gjøre noe. Så spiste vi pizza på et ukoselig men koselig sted på samme tid, kalt Tony's Pizza. Vi endte opp med å få oss en hel gratis pizza og en bestevenn.
Vi syns alle han var grei i begynnelsen, men bestemte oss fort at han var litt FOR grei med oss! haha.



Vi hadde et stort dilemma om hvem som skulle sove hvor i campingbilen.
Vi var alt for mange folk der enn det det var plass til så noen måtte sove i telt. Diana, Sarah, Chels og meg endte opp i telt. Men før det gikk vi litt gal med bilder og tull med Alita og Talia (som er fra Australia, og er utrolig kul, hehe)



Warped Tour var digg. Heldigvis var det ikke så varmt der vi var.
Det var nærme sjøen så vi hadde bris hele tiden.
Bandene jeg så var:

Shwayze
From First to Last
Anberlin
The Academy Is...
Cobra Starship
Everytime I Die
Say Anything
Angels and Airwaves
We The Kings
The Higher
Alesana
The Maine

og enkelte andre jeg bare så ett eller to sanger fra. Cobra Starship var definitivt best av dem jeg ramset opp.
Jeg fikk ikke sett Mayday Parade pga at Anberlin spilte på samme tid. Jeg valgte Anberlin over Mayday Parade, de har vært et av mine favorittband lenge før MP.
For å være helt ærlig skuffet Anberlin meg en god del.
Likte ikke settet og de hadde lite guts.
men men.

Vi ble solbrent. Selvfølgelig. Vi hadde solkrem med faktor 50, men likevel fungerte ikke det helt. Vi spiste så på Taco Bell.
Neste dag tok det evigheter å komme oss hjem! men vi kom oss hjem, noe jeg gledet meg helt banansk (et ord jeg nettopp fant opp :]) til.

Rett før vi kom hjem fant Chelsea ut at Julian var blitt tatt med å røyke weed.
Det betydde da altså at Chelsea også ble tatt. Så foreldre kom over å de snakket og slikt!


Ser ikke dette farlig ekte ut? Vi ble helt skremt.

Dette var en lang blogg, jeg vet.
I shall shut my fingers now.

Endelig

Akkurat na sitter jeg hos Sara a venter pa at vi skal dra til Warped Tour.
Endelig en annen konsert, har ventet pa det en stund. Vi har ikke vert pa noe siden Bamboozle. Det kommer til a bli super varmt, men vi overlever.
Bandet jeg gleder meg mest til a se tror jeg er Anberlin, men Mayday Parade gleder jeg meg ogsa til a se.

I dag var jeg en liten tur til Ryans graduation fest, badet og hang med Katie, Micole, Tim, Jordan og den gjengen der.
Det var koslig, synd jeg ikke kunne bli til fler kom.
Men vi matte dra, for vi skal sove i campingbil eller hva det na kalles.

Forhapentligvis vil jeg se dem igjen for jeg drar!

You are completely remarkable

Elsker postsecret!

Kjedelig dag. Spiste frokost på Carrows!
Pannekaker med jordbær og greier, yummylicious.

Graduation '08

Dagen i dag har vært lang og kort på samme tid. Måtte opp å gå ned til skolen pga at vi måtte ha øvelse til Graduation ceremony. Allerede klokken 8 var det KNALL varmt ute. Solen stekte hardt. Veldig ukomfortabelt om du spør meg.
I hele dag har det vært over 40 grader uten skygger whatsoever. Øvelsen tok lang tid, og så smart som jeg er tok jeg på meg jeans, converse og t skjorte!
Svetten bokstavelig talt rant nedover ryggen. Så ble jeg solbrent på den ene siden av fjeset, HAHA!

Da jeg kom hjem ca rundt 10.30 var Ronnie, Monica og Alex der. Herman kom litt senere. Vi hadde tenkt oss på sushi!
Etter sushi badet vi og greier. De guttene der har en tendens til å bli grusomt barnslig. På veien hjem fant de en stor rull med plastfolie som de bestemte seg for å ta med hjem.
Da vi kom dit rulte de Ronnie inn i den (noe som kan være ganske farlig) og bestemte seg for å hive henne i vannet (noe som er enda farligere).
Jeg puttet opp bilder på facebook, noe som lagde problemer med moren hennes.
drama drama.

Etter alt dette, tok jeg på meg den knæsj oransje kjolen min fra H&M, og gikk ned på skolen for å gjøre meg klar til Graduation.
Pappa og dem kom etterpå.
Seremonien var ingenting spesielt, det føltes litt som en annen konfirmasjon (bare konfirmasjonen var bedre).
Men gøy var det å putte på kapper og hatter, AKKURAT SOM PÅ FILM! oioioi.
hahahaha...
Så på slutten gikk vi å spiste på meksikansk restaurant og koste oss.

Trist

[Herman, Daniel, Cheyenne, Alex, Kristen, Chelsea, Ronnie, Anna, Monica, Danielle, Meg og Sam, ta bort Jessica på siden hun pleier aldri å være der]

Siste dag på skolen! :( [18.Juni]

"Don't Cry because it's Over, Smile because it Happened!"

Under vann

Dagen i dag har vært ganske kjedelig. Som vanlig. Skolen var helt grei!
Hadde bare to fag i dag med to timer i hver.

Redigerte kortfilmen som på en måte var eksamen i den klassen.
Det gikk fort, men det gjør det alltid når jeg holder på med film!
Og i Journalisten bare spiste vi og spilte kort.
Husker dere mafia? haha. gøyeste kortspillet som egentlig ikke har noe å gjøre med kort i det hele tatt.

Da vi kom hjem satt vi oss ned å så TV og på pcen.
Noe jeg ville prøve å unngå, men som for meg ikke er så grusomt lett.

Senere da Alyssa var gått, ryddet jeg litt rundt i svinestien av et hus. Så tok jeg med hunden på tur, noe hun var overlykkelig for, for det skjer jo aldri!
Gikk en god stund faktisk.
Da jeg kom hjem var jeg overhetet og svettet noe grusomt, så jeg hoppet i bassenget.
Chelsea følgte rett etter å vi tok bilder under vann :D



Jeg vil ikke hjem til Bergen.
No offense til dem som leser (er det i det hele tatt noen som leser???)
men jeg er dritlei Bergen. Til og med etter å ha vært vekke fra det i ett år.
Bergen irriterer meg.
Byen har sine positive sider, akkurat for øyeblikket ser jeg bare det negative.

Ny blogg

Etter 179 blogger fant jeg ut at jeg var begynt å kjede meg.
Da var det på tide å begynne på nytt. Dette er ikke første bloggen min altså.
Har blogget i litt mer enn ett år. Men fant ut nå at jeg har blogget litt for mye for mine egne ører og for de nærmeste.

Det fristet å åpne den så den ikke ble så kjedelig å skrive.
Nå har jeg gjort akkurat det!

Neste uke drar jeg hjem etter å ha vært her i Chatsworth, California i ett år.
Jeg gruer meg. Jeg er veldig frem og tilbake med hva jeg faktisk vil.
For å være helt ærlig så er det ikke så veldig mange jeg kommer til å savne.
Men de jeg kommer til å savne, kommer jeg til å savne utrolig dypt.

Jeg er 100% innstilt på at det er her jeg skal studere. Det føles riktig akkurat på tidspunktet, men man vet jo aldri hva som kommer til å skje når jeg kommer hjem.
Jeg har fremdeles ca ett år å tenke på det.


Helgen var fin den, Pappa og Annette har vært her siden sent Torsdag og skal bli til tidlig Fredag. Vi dro til Santa Barbara på Lørdag og på Søndag dro meg Pappa, Annette og Zach til Hollywood og skikket.
Jeg kjøpte meg en ny CD på Virgin Megastore. Måtte innom himmelen litt før vi dro vettu. Jeg kjøpte meg The Last Shadow Puppets som jeg har hatt så lyst på. :D


Kjeder meg på akkurat dette tidspunktet, meg og Chelsea sitter bare på PCN og surrer.
Har en følelse av at jeg egentlig skulle vært ute å hatt det gøy siden jeg drar om mindre enn to uker.
Der har du meg i et nøtteskall.

yeye.